I Review Everything: Day 266 – Wear and Tear

It marvels me how quickly my desk has become a mess. It has become covered in massive scrapes and scars from the various things I keep on my desk. I feel like I only just bought this desk, yet it looks like it has been owned for years.

Maybe I just don’t take enough care of it. The desk is no longer a pleasant sight, but in saying that, pleasant doesn’t really describe it’s original state either.

It is a cheap desk, I knew that when I bought it. Cheap desks suck, so of course it is ruined already. There’s not much I can do now anyway. It still works. Really I shouldn’t be complaining at all.

6/10

I Review Everything: Day 265 – Aftershocks

These goddamn aftershocks keep messing up my aim. At crucial moments my desk begins to shake, slipping mouse from my hand as my blow misses them. It’s pretty annoying. I still seem to be winning, so that’s good, but there were times where I knew I could have performed a better play, but missed my chance.

Oh well in the end I guess. What does it really matter?

 

I Review Everything: Day 264 – Vomit

I vomited quite a lot today. So much that I ended up dry reaching. It hurt. It was frustrating. Every time I almost fell asleep, I was pummeled by vomit. I had to stay awake, just waiting for each and every time it would come.

It left a burning sensation in my throat for hours after my final vomit. Food tasted worse than usual, and water only soothed for seconds.

It has been a long time since I spewed this much in one day. I’m glad it’s not a daily recurrence. It’s pretty crap. Do not recommend.

I Review Everything: Day 263 – Crushed Mother Can

In a way it looks sad. Alone. Dented. Beaten. It was not made to be this way, at least not in it’s life. This is it’s demise. The end of it’s life. It has fulfilled it’s first purpose, and must now fulfill the next. Destruction, and recreation.

Our lives aren’t like this. Well as far as we know. We just die. We don’t come back. Consciousness just stops. We stop. We don’t get to be recreated. So, in a way, I envy the can.

Of course it is just a can. But of course again, I am just a human. We’re both the same really.

I Review Everything: Day 262 – Vacuuming

I hate wasting time. It’s my priorities for time that are messed up. I feel like cleaning is a waste of time when I could be doing something fun instead. But there’s a need for order that resides within me, and it’s far more powerful than my need for fun. So every now and then I clean. I do it all in one lot, easier that way, or at least I think it is.

Vacuuming is one of the nicest parts. Seeing the floor become clean again. It looks neat. Orderly. And something about that clicks with my mind. It appeals to me.

So it’s actually nice to vacuum sometimes. I guess this means I’m getting older or something. How are you supposed to keep up with yourself when there’s so many things going on outside?

I’m sure I’ll figure it out one day.

8/10

I Review Everything: Day 261 – Dead Streets

At 7pm the streets are lively. People are travelling the town. Socialising, having fun, living their lives. At 7pm the streets are lively, but not today. Today the streets were dead.

I can’t know for sure, but it must be due to the U.S. election. No one wants to miss it. One country holds the fate of many more in it’s hands, and it isn’t looking on. It doesn’t make sense to me, there aren’t many people I know that would agree with the decision they are currently making.

Of course it isn’t over yet, things could change. But it doesn’t look likely at all. Whcih is scary. We have no idea what will happen. I want to hope that things won’t be as bad as we expect, but how can we really know?

Power corrupts, which is why I’m scared to see it get into either candidates hands.

I Review Everything: Day 261 – Headset Solution

A few weeks ago I broke the stand for my headset control. Instead of being easily accessible on my table, it was dragging alongside my feet, rendering my necessary mutes painfully slow to commit to. It was just annoying more than anything.

But now, I have fixed it. I slapped a bunch of tape on each end to hold it down, leaving each button open an accessible. And it’s fine. I guess I wasn’t really expecting it to be a big amazing thing, but it stills feels kind of anti-climatic. Maybe I just want more interesting things to happen in my life? I dunno.

At least now I can mute with ease.

6/10